Rothko

Content warning: suicidal themes

i.

The pills were swallowed

The wrist was cut

The deep red puddle was drawn in blood

6ft by 8ft

Just like his paintings

Just like the portals he'd sought to explore 

ii.

Epic

Restless heart

Colour clenched 

In desperate expression

iii.

In the silence of the canvas

A mysterious music

Dripping in black oil

Smiling through tears 

iiii.

You no longer knew why you'd came

Egg-shelled spectator

18 inches from swimming within it  

With your eyes, which sought to seize the face

To sense fully the sacred terror

The first ecstasy the body never forgets

iv.

A soul on fire

A narrow band of darkening sky

When the music's over, turn off the lights.

Mark Rothko No. 16

If you're struggling, you're not alone. There are people who care deeply about you and want to listen. If you need someone to talk to, please reach out—help is available.

Australian Helplines

Lifeline: 13 11 14 – 24/7 support for anyone in crisis or thinking about suicide (www.lifeline.org.au)

Beyond Blue: 1300 22 4636 – support for those going through a hard time (www.beyondblue.org.au)

Suicide Call Back Service: 1300 659 467 – Free, 24/7 counseling for anyone affected by suicide (www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au)

International Helplines

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Writer: Matthew Phillips
Editor: Liz Porporis